that single step

i've been tossing the idea of starting a blog around in my head, more like a softball than a salad. because the overarching thought of a blog is a single idea, not a whole mix of baby spinach and arugula and cilantro and... wow, i could really go for a salad right now. also, blogger doesn't know that arugula is a word. get with the times blogger, it's a viable green! this is probably the best welcome you could have to my writing. it's random, it's a little catchy, it just sort of comes out. i wanted to start writing because i've always always always enjoyed it and i have a lot of opinions. i look at things from every angle and i like to share what i think. with a blog i can put it out there to the universe without having to go to all the trouble of getting a soapbox and finding a corner and looking like a crazy person. it's subtle, but i still get to rant.

so let me start by saying that if i had a mission in life, it would be to get people to give up their obsession with money and power and things and put the focus back on relationships and people and experiences. what is life but a string of experiences and people? i guess it's things too, but even really expensive things aren't great because of their price. designer jeans are worth paying for because of how great they make your ass look, not because of some status bullshit. i don't know, i guess i'm just not materialistic and i think the key to happiness is in comfortably settling into one's niche in life, whatever that may be. for me, that niche is acting.

i've lived in LA (yay! first capital letters... i don't like them much, but it looks weird to refer to los angeles as la) for 7 months now, and this city, for all it's shallow insipidity, has reawakened my hope. there is an energy in the air that comes from millions of people all chasing their dreams. it comes from the writers writing, the actors acting, the dancers dancing. the sunshine helps. the warmth helps. the ocean and the mountains help. the people help. for every douche bag there is at least one truly lovely artist. there is a live and let live quality to the air. 70 year old gay couples walk down the promenade in santa monica holding hands, mixed race couples don't invite so much as a second glance or thought, the heavily tattooed are seen as completely decent human beings. those of you who have known me for years know that this feels like home to me.

so today, i am not angry and i have nothing in particular to rant about, other than the price of gas at the pump ($4.19!!! wtf!!!) i think that's an appropriate way to kick off a blog. i am happy. i am writing new bits for my comedy, i'm at the comedy store on april 17th! i am auditioning quite a lot in the last couple weeks, i will be acting again soon! i am in love with a man who adores me, understands me, and takes care of me! i am exactly where i want to be.